#MyExTaughtMe

kat twitter tengah trending tentang #MyExTaughtMe

yeah.. so.. nak taip kat situ macam panjang lak kan.. haha..

dah nama pun ex, so, everything seems so tak best pon about him.. *walaupun ada yang best.. haha.. 

i remember reading his blog when we break up.. he said, dia tau, bila dia buat keputusan ni, literally, dia mungkin membunuh aku..

and disebabkan ayat dia tu, aku jadi, huh? ok so? what if i relax2 je bila u ask for break up.. yeah aku sedih.. skandal aku tetiba ada makwe pon aku sedih kot.. so? 

its not the end of the world pon bila ko tinggalkan aku.. i'm still eating, sleeping properly.. 

i've been hurt more when we try to hold as if things still gonna b ok.. when u put an end to it, i'm so glad it was over.. 

after that, kadang2 bila teringat tu, sedih gak.. nak2 lagi aku ni bukan mudah untuk suka orang lelaki ni.. tapi, bila aku suka, aku tak malu pun untuk cakap eh aku suka la style ko.. tapi kalo ko tak suka, xpe la.. aku takde hal.. 

when i'm with him, i know how it feels sh*t when somebody we love, ignore us.. totally.. as if i'm not existed.. 

but at the same time, i stil appreciate when people around him said he put my pix as wallpaper in his computer.. blablabla.. which is actually still not enuff to make up the ignoring part.. 

he have been indirectly make me smile.. but directly, he just make my heart hurt more.. so, i'm not living with that kind of fantasy anymore.. 

as i grew up, i want to be love just like my fren does.. enjoying the presence of guy in their life.. sharing happy and sad things which i dont get with him.. its not physical contact i was hoping for but more to sharing and understand our different wavelength.. kalo nak physical contact, nak kene lempang? kawen tak lagi.. isk2.. 

long distance relationship really thought me many things.. if you are willing to sacrifice your money just to call ur girl daily.. spend 1-2 hour on call before you sleep.. with a quality talk.. and saying that what u do is not a routine, that u just love hearing her voice, that will be considered as romantic things.. 

tho i stil like LDR coz i'm free to do things i like.. cancerian just dont like to be push around.. haha.. :D 

what my ex really taught me are

1. i dont cling with guy.. i stil have my wali to settle things for me..

2. i can say its ok without ta-cing, when suddenly my current bf have to hold ur call if somethings up..

3. i can say its ok if my bf hang out with his girl besfren.. coz he told me evrythg not like my ex..  

4. i learn to be give space to my bf if he need 1.. like watching football.. wpun kdg2, dia stil keep on messaging me.. lolx.. but if he ask for it, he will definitely get it.. coz we communicate..  

5. if a guy like u, he will do anything just to hear ur voice..

6. if a guy like u, he will try to solve things quick if there is any friction happen without wait

*kdg ada gak majuk.. hahahaha.. tipu la klo sntiasa ok je kan..

thanks for making me apreciate my bf now more than i do when i'm with u..

p/s: whoaa.. suddenly rasa untung lak kenal my ex.. byk benda dia ajo ni.. hahaha..

dieting with plans..

i'm striving in losing weight more than in my study.. haha.. 

remember last time i cut down my calories intake n exercise, and i lose 10kilos in 3 months? 

this time, i try to follow a diet plan which my friend share with me.. if we read, this diet does not require exercise.. how great is that sound huh? haha.. 

it is call the atkins diet.. huhu.. 

what u have to do, is u just have to cut your carbohydrate intake TOTALLY from your life.. 

no carbohydrate, to me means is no sugar, rice, bread, flour, potatoes..

you have to cut it for AT LEAST 2 weeks.. and if you plan to lose more, then keep on doing it.. without exercise..

hard.. i know.. even milk you cant consume coz it contain high carbs if you read those label.. 

my friend share to me this blog for diet, but urm, he says only 20g of carb allow per day.. i dont quite agree with him to eat things such as hot dogs.. altho the carbs is low, do you know how many preservative they put on those..? and how many calories it contain? u dont wanna know, seriously.. 

frankly speaking, atkins doesnt care about calories.. fat is not taboo for this diet plan.. only carbs.. means, it doesnt matter how much butter you take, as long as you stil dont take those carbs.. whoaaa.. 

ok, think back.. why you want to start a diet? for me, its not just about losing weight.. its about having a healthy lifestyle.. 

so, i try to search other types of diet plan.. south beach diet plan is good.. 

just like atkins, they cut the carbs totally.. but ONLY for 2 weeks.. 

then, you can consume healthy carbs such as whole grain bread, brown rice etc.. but stil in low intake.. 

for me, doesnt matter what type of diet plan you follow, as long as u eat right, you watch over your calories intake, exercise consistently, and for the sake of your health, you are on the right track..

i didnt manage to cut my carbs for 2 weeks.. never.. x mampu!! haha.. but when i think i eat much, i exercise more.. ouh.. remember, dont exercise right after your meal.. you have to wait for 2 hours after meal.. 

if you want to diet, drink a lot of water.. 2liter at least.. i heard some people go for 4 liter.. gila! aku bukan gajah nk minum banyak air.. haha.. 

what's important is, no pills please.. 

thats all.. babai.. 

p/s: amira zakhi, nak diet tak? hakhak.. 

topeng warna warni

salam..

wow.. lama betul tak menulis.. i'm suppose to be sleeping, but here i am, writing in my favorite little corner on my toto.. hee.. 

my life is too board lately.. takde apa yang boleh dinukilankan.. 

ye.. saya dah ada bf.. mungkin sebab tu tak banyak dah nak cita kat sini.. kah3.. perlu ke bgtau? 

its been great 7 months ++ and still counting.. till jannah i pray.. amin2.. 

but thats not what i;m gonna write.. 

still.. its about relationship of course.. haha.. 

i've been knowing him since my degree.. tak rapat langsung.. until he start to worked and i further my study.. 

since then he become my besfren and still.. 

sepanjang jadi close fren la kan, banyak benda la yang kitorang share.. macam dia suka politik, aku ni yang tak tahu psal politik, dengar je la kan.. and aku lak of course cita ntah hape2 la merapu2, dia pun kene tadah telinga.. haha.. 

ada satu benda la yang dia pernah cakap kat aku time dulu yang aku nak share.. 

'khai.. kalo ko nak tau, lelaki ni kalo depan perempuan, macam2 jenis topeng dia akan pakai. and there are a lot of things yang guy akan buat to impress a girl'.. 

aku pun xtau ar macamane hal ni leh kuar.. tapi mungkin time ni cakap pasal hubungan lelaki ppuan la kot.. 

peh.. sampai sekarang kot aku pegang tu.. tapi cik penguin tak lah.. sebab kitorang solely start as an honest fren kan.. tapi still, aku pernah gak go thru that process dengan lelaki2 lain.. wah! kem men plural lagi kan.. hakhak.. kidding2.. *just to show yang aku ni hot stuff la kengkonon.. bluekk.. :P

tapi the things is, aku ni bukan la jenis senang impress sangat pon.. buruk sangka lagi ada lah.. gebangnye ko! ha.. tu dah tahap2 menyampah la kalau aku mengutuk dalam hati.. or paling2 pon aku apreciate knowledge yang dia share.. itu sahaja.. lain la, kalau ko cakap kau tau yang artis dira tu ialah anak bekas ketua menteri melaka, abu zahar.. peh.. tu aku kagum.. lelaki tau?? biau betul ko ni.. hikhik.. cik penguin sy tauuuuu.. saya kagum sungguh ngan dia.. 

urm.. perihal topeng.. kalau baru sebulan dua kenal, belum tentu lagi dapat bukak semua topeng2 nye.. cara senang, perhatikan how he handle benda2 keliling.. sebab, ko bukan akan tinggal dengan cara dia tawan hati kau.. tapi ko akan tinggal dengan character dia n macamana dia mampu untuk buat ko berkali2 jatuh cinta smpai hembusan nafas terakhir.. ish.. aku rasa banyak kali aku cakap pasal character dalam blog aku ni.. penting niiiii.. kalau starting hubungan pun dah berbohong, reject ar.. sebab, pada aku orang macam ni tak hormat hati and kepala otak kita.. 

again.. aku tak la kata pilihan aku perfect sangat.. tapi Alhamdulillah la, cik penguin saya tak buat banyak pun on impressing n topeng lgsung yilek.. impressing tu, sekarang ni ada lah.. ckit2.. :P hakhak.. topeng, sy harap awak tak bertukar jadi bukan2.. batman ke, spiderman ke, kluang man ke.. xmo.. saya nak awak just be in your own skin.. hee.. 

i know, girls out there, my beloved fren who read this, i know some of you maybe have the same thought like mine: judgmental n sangat hati2 bila nak start hubungan.. but stil, there are certain girl yang sangat tak hati2.. i just hope n pray hard that we can be strong, have principle, but not too memilih la.. 

mak aku kata, kalau nak cari suami, 

1. agama

2. harta

3. tanggungjawab

4. kesihatan

kalau ada yang terkurang di pilihan2 tu, selagi nyawa kita ada di jasad kita, selagi tu Allah swt bagi kita peluang untuk perbaiki.. 

ha.. ni dah lari dari tajuk ni.. tapi takpe la kan.. aku share apa yang mak aku pesan.. hehe..

p/s: sangat suka tengok anak2 ikan kat fac pendidikan yang taff2.. amik pendidikan jasmani ye dik? hakhak.. nak gi jogging ngan awak leh tak.. kui3..