declaration of independence

i nvr really did say gudbye to him..
but today, insyaAllah.. after about 9 months.. i'm serious in letting him go..
y now?
its not that i've met sum1.. but i juz cant let it b this way until forever..
its juz aint rite.. i've been thinking about this since i started my master..
he need to move on.. and i will certainly feel happy with him moving on..
n i need to move on.. worrying abt him no more than a fren..

sumthg i did learn from my past relationshipS.. with the s, people!
but i cant actually tell u.. haha.. let me keep it myself.. (sbnrnya mls nk tulis pnjg2.. haha.. klo nk, dtg mnuntut ngn aku.. bru aku bgtau)
biar lah lps ni, aku hidup dgn bpaksikn experinces..
after all they r the best teacher in the world..

what i can say is.. when it comes about relationship, feel confidence with it, its all or nothing.. when u got all, nothing can stop u from loving sum1.. not even urself.. coz u will got the gut to face the world.. togather with the money in ur pocket n brain in ur skull in the rite place of coz.. haha..

i officially announce meself---> single
me.. with no string or feeling or anythg attached to any1..
this is my declaration of independence..
i wish he feels happy with me announcing this..
i wish he read this..
i wish he knows that he's free..
hope our frenship will never end..

i hate 2 b fren with guys!
i mean.. a really gud frenship/whatever-ship u called..
we alwiz end up like hell.. duh..
we really close at 1 time..
but in the end, we alwiz act like 'close' never appear in our memory lane..

its all or nothing after this..
(like i care to b fren with any guy.. translation.. mcm la aku kesah kwn ngn llk.. haha.. ) <--- mumbling sorg2.. wat2 x nmpk ye ayt ini, kwn2 llk ku yg mbace ini.. haha.. aku mmg kesah gle kwn ngn korg.. sb korg slalu jht ngn aku.. perangai mcm devil.. haha.. :P

special announcement dedicated to my guyfren.. u r the best.. klo x, xkn aku kwn ngn korg (sje nk amik ati blk.. haha)

i got to have my beauty sleep.. esok kne handle kelas.. kelas yg memeningkn kpl aku yg dh bkarat.. hmm..

oh oh.. aku lupa sumthg.. a few days back i wrote sumthg like 'mau mencari kisah cinta yg hebat.. tp..'
and the sentence stop there..
this is the smbungannya..
'tp.. aku prefer kisah cinta yg biasa.. sb kisah cinta yg hebat adalah kisah cinta yg luar biasa'
n i realize, i'm not that strong..
tgk cite sumpah bunian? apa yg hawa rse pd adam, itulah contoh kisah cinta hebat yg aku cari.. tp.. mmg aku x kuat sb aku blum jumpa adam utk dr aku.. huhu..

ada spe2 nk jd adam utk sayer x? kne la sweet, kaya, encem mcm dlm cite sumpah bunian tu.. hahahahaha..

until then,
salam..

raya lg..

aritu emi n wani dtg beraya umah.. mrh alip bl die dpt tau aku pesan kt bdk2 ni jgn mkn byk2 kt umah die sb umah aku pon hidang mknn utk mreka.. mntk maap la ye.. tp ok ape.. kt umh au pon mreka x mkn byk.. huhu..

pas mreka beraya kt umah alip, bru dtg umah aku..

pastu kami g msjid tnh.. huhu.. aku yg drive.. agak cuak gak sbnrnya bwk rmai2 ni.. nk2 lg bl memikirkn slh 1 umh yg kitorg nk g agk curam.. bkn agk.. mmg curam pon.. smpai kn mak aku pon x bg aku bwk nek keta sb x yakin aku leh bwk.. soh parking kt bwh je.. klo nk parking kt bwh lak, kne parking agk jauh sb umah die kt corner.. dr aku parking kt bwh, baik aku tggl je wani, soh die je wakilkn kitorg.. haha..

tp bl smpai kt kaki bukit 2, aku tekad, tukar je gear, naek!
alhamdulillah smpai.. hehe.. steady x..

time blk, pakcik din reverse kn keta.. makcik yg soh.. bkn aku ek.. tp myb sb makcik nmpk aku dok cuak tkut x lps bl nk reverse.. haha..

blk umh aku dh nk abeh maghrib dh time tu..

pastu adik wani dok syok tgk disney chanel lak.. tggu r smpai kul 9, bru mreka pulang..

p/s: best nyer klo mira ada skali.. leh tnjuk skill memandu aku yg bkn2 2.. haha..