kat twitter tengah trending tentang #MyExTaughtMe
yeah.. so.. nak taip kat situ macam panjang lak kan.. haha..
dah nama pun ex, so, everything seems so tak best pon about him.. *walaupun ada yang best.. haha..
i remember reading his blog when we break up.. he said, dia tau, bila dia buat keputusan ni, literally, dia mungkin membunuh aku..
and disebabkan ayat dia tu, aku jadi, huh? ok so? what if i relax2 je bila u ask for break up.. yeah aku sedih.. skandal aku tetiba ada makwe pon aku sedih kot.. so?
its not the end of the world pon bila ko tinggalkan aku.. i'm still eating, sleeping properly..
i've been hurt more when we try to hold as if things still gonna b ok.. when u put an end to it, i'm so glad it was over..
after that, kadang2 bila teringat tu, sedih gak.. nak2 lagi aku ni bukan mudah untuk suka orang lelaki ni.. tapi, bila aku suka, aku tak malu pun untuk cakap eh aku suka la style ko.. tapi kalo ko tak suka, xpe la.. aku takde hal..
when i'm with him, i know how it feels sh*t when somebody we love, ignore us.. totally.. as if i'm not existed..
but at the same time, i stil appreciate when people around him said he put my pix as wallpaper in his computer.. blablabla.. which is actually still not enuff to make up the ignoring part..
he have been indirectly make me smile.. but directly, he just make my heart hurt more.. so, i'm not living with that kind of fantasy anymore..
as i grew up, i want to be love just like my fren does.. enjoying the presence of guy in their life.. sharing happy and sad things which i dont get with him.. its not physical contact i was hoping for but more to sharing and understand our different wavelength.. kalo nak physical contact, nak kene lempang? kawen tak lagi.. isk2..
long distance relationship really thought me many things.. if you are willing to sacrifice your money just to call ur girl daily.. spend 1-2 hour on call before you sleep.. with a quality talk.. and saying that what u do is not a routine, that u just love hearing her voice, that will be considered as romantic things..
tho i stil like LDR coz i'm free to do things i like.. cancerian just dont like to be push around.. haha.. :D
what my ex really taught me are
1. i dont cling with guy.. i stil have my wali to settle things for me..
2. i can say its ok without ta-cing, when suddenly my current bf have to hold ur call if somethings up..
3. i can say its ok if my bf hang out with his girl besfren.. coz he told me evrythg not like my ex..
4. i learn to be give space to my bf if he need 1.. like watching football.. wpun kdg2, dia stil keep on messaging me.. lolx.. but if he ask for it, he will definitely get it.. coz we communicate..
5. if a guy like u, he will do anything just to hear ur voice..
6. if a guy like u, he will try to solve things quick if there is any friction happen without wait
*kdg ada gak majuk.. hahahaha.. tipu la klo sntiasa ok je kan..
p/s: whoaa.. suddenly rasa untung lak kenal my ex.. byk benda dia ajo ni.. hahaha..